This is my mistake by Bonny

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is Kelvin. This is happen around 1 years ago.
My headmaster called me. He give me decision letter to get me out from school. 'Oh, i think its happened' suddenly my dad called me and ask me to go home now. I dont feel anything. This is happen like my daily. When iam coming home, i look my father car. I came in. I look him sit on his seat by born his anger. I drop my beg on seat with me.
"Aren't you satisfied now? You make me embarrass!"
"What?"
"What? You ask me what? Ask yourself Kelvin! Whats wrong with you?!"
"Nothing! Why you so carely? Aren't you never want to know about me? You always think your job,your job, and your job!"
He stand up and slap me. I get my blood around my lips. He snarl me. Iam wake up and leave him alone. Iam dont care when he call me. I come in my room.
Suddenly, my phone is ringing. Its calling from my gf. She asks me to meet her now. I turn down from my room and go away so faster.
I look she is so sad. She's crying. I closed her and try to calm her. She tells me about something she said, but she won't to open her mouth.
"Arien, iam sorry i drop out. And my father usher me to join in boarding school tomorrow" i said.
"Iam sorry to hear that. But i have yo say sorry. This is my mad"
She's silent. I shook her and ask what happened. She's crying loudly.
"Iam.. iam.. pregnant"
WHAT???? why this happen, i never touch her and sex with her. Its not my mistake. Iam anger. I believe her, if she is betrying me. I wake up and snarl her but she's still crying. Suddenly i slap her and leave her. I dont care when she calls me and try to get my apologize. I never forgive her.
When iam arrived in my room, i destroy everything i found. Iam so forious. I ask my dad to go to boarding now. I want forget Arien faster. Since in my trip Arien try to call me but i ignored.
7 days later...
Arien still try to call me and she says she'll abortion today. I dont care. But you know my heart still love her but iam so broken. Iam stay away on my bed and i look her picture in my phone. She's smile and i see iam happy beside her.
At 01.00pm my phone is ringing. One message from my friend. He is Carl.
"Iam sorry to hear that.but this is happened. I was hear an hour ago about Arien she want to abortion and she losses her blood over.And believe or not she's died today. Rest in peace for her. I think you will come here only for meet her before her interred"
No! Its not true. He is lies. She's not died. She says she will abortion and wait me back for her. I can't believe it. I turn down from my bed and forced my friend to ren his motorcycle. I go faster. My memorize return in my mind. I remember evertime when iam with her. I still love her very much. I feel tears me down when i see her in my mind.
I arrived in front of her. I look her. In the box alone. I can't forgive myself. Oh my god! I missing her in my life. I brought her to the last resort.Suddenly, Andrew called me. He ask me to return before this situation will be worse.
When i back, I surrender with them. They took me go to a court to my responbility. They snarl me and hit me but iam silent.
"Are you dumb?! You had broken the rule, so you have to doing your punishment"
"Do it!" Someone said in front of me.
He hold clipper in his hand and near me.
"Give him #2" he said
Then, he cuts my hair in a mess. I dont care what he want to do. I remember when i got my punishment and cutting my hair made Arien laugh loudly. She likes My buzzed hair.
Klak! He turn on the clipper and Put on my forehead and pushed it about until my neck. And he repeated that several times in different lines to all truncated equal length only around 1 / 2 mm. And i swear I will keep cut it like this in memory of arien. Every two weeks once i will shave my hair with # 2.

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